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SO I HAD TO GIVE MY LAST SPEECH FOR MY COM 111 CLASS AND IT WAS A COMMERATIVE SPEECH ... I RECEIVED VERY POSITIVE FEEDBACK FROM MY TEACHER AND CLASSMATES SO I DECIDED TO SHARE IT WITH MY CLASSMATES HERE ...

A LITTLE BACKGROUND BEFORE I BEGIN ... ON MARCH 21, 2004 I HAD TO RUSH MY MOM TO THE HOSPITAL ... SHE WAS RECOVERING FROM A TOTAL KNEE REPLACEMENT SURGERY AND THE NURSES AND DOCTOR'S TOLD HER TO STOP TAKING HER BLOOD THINNER MEDICINE BECAUSE THEY COULD NOT GET A READING OF HER BLOOD COUNT THUS MAKING IT DIFFICULT TO REMOVE ANY STITCHES. UNFORTUNATELY THIS DID NOT WORK OUT SO GREAT. WITHIN A WEEK AND A HALF TO TWO WEEKS MY MOM FORMED A BLOOD CLOT IN HER LEG THAT TRAVELED TO HER LUNG ... THE HOSPITAL DECIDED TO TAKE IT UPON THEMSELVES TO NOT CHECK IF THERE WAS ANY FAMILY WAITING UNTIL AN HOUR AFTER SHE HAD BEEN THERE. THEREFORE SHE WAS ALREADY SEDATED BECAUSE I GOT A CHANCE TO TALK TO HER. SO MY COMMERATIVE SPEECH IS A LETTER TO MY MOM.

HERE GOES ...

AS I SIT IN THE DARK ALONE, MY MIND TENDS TO WONDER IF I CAN MAKE IT THROUGH THE NIGHT. IT IS MOMENTS LIKE THIS ONE, HERE IN MY SOLITUDE THAT I THINK OF YOU MOST. WHILE I CONTINUE TO BATTLE MY INNER DEMONS, I TRY TO RECALL WHAT YOU WOULD SAY OR WHAT YOU WOULD DO TO MAKE EVERYTHING OKAY. AS THE YEARS PASS I CANNOT HELP BUT TO LOOK BACK KNOWING YOU DID EVERYTHING ALONE. YOU WORKED SO HARD TO MAKE A LIVING, TO MAKE A HOME SO WE WERE KEFT SAFE AND SOUND AT NIGHT. NEVER COMPLAINING, AND NEVER COMPARING, YOU DID IT ALL BECAUSE YOU CARED. MY ONLY REGRET IS THAT I NEVER HAD A CHANCE TO TELL YOU JUST HOW MUCH I DEPENDED ON YOU AND NOW THAT YOU ARE NO LONGER HERE, I UNDERSTAND JUST HOW HARD IT MUST HAVE BEEN. EVERY SKINNED KNEE AND EVERY MEAL COMBINED WITH YOUR SPECIAL TENDERNESS, I TOOK FOR GRANTED. MOREOVER, WITH ALL THAT HAS PASSED AND ALL YET TO COME I REALIZE NOT ONLY HOW MUCH YOU ARE MISSED BUT ALSO HOW YOU HELPED TO SHAPE MY ENTIRE WORLD. THE REASONS I HAVE END THE ETHICS I POSSESS ARE BECAUSE OF YOU. THE COMPANY I KEEP AND THE FRIENDSHIPS THAT I HAVE BONDED ARE BECAUSE OF YOU. YOU HONORED ME BY CARRYING ME THROUGH LIFE UNTIL IT WAS MY TURN TO CARRY YOU. I CARRY YOUR MEMORY; I CARRY YOUR HOPES, YOUR ZEST FOR LIFE, YOUR HUMOR, AND YOUR LOVE. THANK YOU ... THANK YOU FOR ALLOWING ME TO BE A PART OF YOU, THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRAISE, THANK YOU FOR YOUR JOY AND THANK YOU FOR BEING MY MOTHER, MY SISTER, AND MY BEST FRIEND. ALL MY WORDS MAY FALL MUTE AND NOT REACH YOU AS I HOPE SO NOW I LEAVE IT IN THE TRUSTED WINGS OF BUTTERFLIES TO PASS THIS MESSAGE ONTO YOU. I LOVE YOU, I THANK YOU AND ABOVE ALL ELSE, I HEARD YOU.